When I was in my twenties, I had just started a new job and was learning to drive. I had a few dizzy spells and even times of confusion, but I kept telling myself they were nothing to worry about. One afternoon I remember feeling faint as my body collapsed on the floor of my best friend's house. That moment changed my life forever. I went from being a wife and a "normal" working mom of two to suddenly being unable to get through a day without having multiple seizures. I couldn't go anywhere alone, and my independence was completely taken away.
To be honest, I just couldn't accept it at first. I was heavily medicated, although the medications didn't stop my seizures and the side effects of those medications turned my tall, thin frame into a bloated body, nearly one hundred pounds over my normal weight. I became depressed and was diagnosed with a condition related to post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), which was determined to be the cause of the seizures. I had to stop working, and my family had to adjust their lives to accommodate my disorder. I felt inadequate, and I didn't know how to process all the hurt and trauma related to my PTSD. My life was a mess.
Fast forward several years later, I still have frequent seizures, with all of the issues that go along with them. However, with the support of God, my husband, and my kids, I have learned to keep a positive and thankful attitude. I still have triggers and limitations, but I have learned how to go through life despite my seizures. I have a great support system, and with their help, I am able to do some of the things I enjoy. My life isn't easy but I am so very blessed. I have learned the importance of accepting help and that God is still with us even in the valley. I have learned to lean on Him, and He is my source of strength.
Cheri DuPart attends church in Saint Paul, Minnesota, with her husband and their two children. She enjoys audiobooks and spending time with her family.